New Page!

Hello there my old friends,
I have a new page now, I am writing in Spanish there, but if you join my I'll go bilingual.
Thanks!

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Hi, again.

Hi there, so yeah, life has been kind of a riot lately; I am not used to being normal, being normal is hard (HARD) work.

I am on meds fulltime now… I don’t know how to call it, it means I take pills that make me not insane and not filled with anxiety; and so, life on this brand new side, is kind of amazing, clean, “standard” you might call it (only it’s anything but). I am working my ash off at the office (La Trouppe), I take my personal photos (here you can have a look), and well I am trying to start a small business with a friend (taking photos for parties and wedding and all those happy events people like to remember).

I am not really sure how much you care to know all this, but, it’s therapeutic for me to write it… so you can skip this post or you can keep reading (your call).

I decided that I am not going to spend my life no doing what I love… and I love to take pictures, I love to write (blog) and I love to drink coffee; three simple things that I will never stop doing; three simple things that in many ways complement themselves.

I am giving this blog a new go. I know I said that before and I went all flaky, but I am ready now, I have new energy and I don’t want to waste it. I don’t care if this thing gives me no money, this blog was never (ever) about making money, I want to get back to searching for amazing things (this blog was always about that).

So, after a day learning a new play, a long shower, a cup of café con leche:I declare this blog back on (yeah, I sung that part).

And this time a really mean it.

So… here is the story:

I went crazy hahaha yeah that’s my way of slowly explaining things… but ok, here I go: I had my reasons for going bananas. I am now in the midst of being diagnosed as anxious depressive, bipolar type 2 or bipolar type 3 (don’t ask me the difference among those last two, I am practically sure not even my young psychiatrist, that one that suggested those possible diagnosis, is able to discern between them).

How I came about to being in front of a psychiatrist? (You ask yourself with honest concern).

Well I had a really awful year, since May I started having blue days followed by normal weeks, but as the world turned and turned the frequency of such bad days started to spike, by October I was mostly out of my game; and so, the sad and crazy parade started…

I did not go home for the holidays (big mistake) and I had little money to spend because I decided to move into my own apartment (really big mistake)… then one day, between Christmas and New year’s eve I had too much access to alcohol (last mistake). 

By 3 pm the next day an understanding and kind of funny doctor was telling me all about being bipolar and writing down my (first ever) prescription for coo-coo pills. Then I spent about 6 o 7 weeks trying to get the right mix of medication and therapy… It was neither effortless, nor much fun; but necessary.

Right now I am at two pinkish pills a day and a total of six happy-drops. I have 4 different doctors that are each taking a mental limb and trying to readjust it. I get assignments from all of them and I do all of them as best as I can.

(Sound simple. It was not. I edited out the worst parts and subtracted most of the pain).

I am back to writing, taking photographs and enjoying life in general. I can now see that I have one of the best working places there is. I read a lot and I am trying to attend more museums, plays and parties. I am not normal and I am content to inform, you all, that normal is not my goal. However I am happy as happy can be and that, for the time being, is something to be proud of. 

I am not sure I should be exposing this side of me; most books about depression and bipolarity advice you not to reveal your diagnosis and fears to possible future bosses or present coworkers… though nothing specific about blogging about it hahaha. I know it might be a mistake, but right now I don’t feel like hiding, I want to kiss and tell, I need to free this story. Maybe/possibly/peut-être in the future I will reconsider and UN-publish this post, but for now, it stays and it will act as an introduction to the second act of this blog. 

Second Act:

Hello, little world, I am doing well and I want back in.

It´s nice to have friends

Yesterday a friend sent me this song. It´s always a lovely gift, a song that one might love and that will forever stay on your mind. For me, right now it hit; I am completely in love with the lyrics and the soft calm pace of the music.

Hope you guys will love it to.

Oh... and yes, later I will post my little story about being gone almost a year.

Cheers! have a nice day!

New post

I´ve taken a long long time to write again. In fact, this blog was closed for a while. 

Today, January ...9th? 10?... I am back, well I think I am anyhow

I just needed to pop back to say hi, and thank you, my small group of followers, because you were really important for my soul and heart at some points of desperation and gloominess.

Now I have a new life. It´s safe to say that I am adjusting well to this big fat city (Mexico City).

A lot has happened in the last… 13… 14? Months… and I hope you give me the chance to slowly explain.

Somehow I closed my eyes for more than a year, but I am ready for the alarm clock to sound.

Bip, bip, bip!

Hello, there!

Cendrine Rovini's Girls

Well, in the blogger sense, this day has been rather prolific. Now I present you with the post about Cendrine Rovini's work.

Cendrine Rovini is an artist from France that does beautiful, graceful and soft illustrations of women and girls. Her drawings are filled with magical hints and calm gazes, her subjects always seem right out of a fairytale or a captivating poem.

Here are my five faves from her work, but I must admit that it took me quite a while to reduce the number of favorites to just five; I urge you to have a look at her pages (links below) because I am pretty sure you will like many of them.

Fileuse

Camille Chaudelarme

La poussée des fleurs de son ventre

L'esprit cerf

For more of her lovely work, you can visit her Flickr Photostream (here), her online portfolio (here), her blog (here) or her Etsy shop (here).

Echappée, Pan est mon père

The Fantastic Work of Natalia Milosz-Piekarska

Continuing on my free day I kept on searching around the web for interesting things I could blog about, and I think I just found something worth writing about. I am referring to the work of Natalia Milosz-Piekarska a jewelry designer from Australia. Now, I have to admit that I have no idea of how to describe her pieces; I just know that I love them, and that I need to have fewer days without work and more money to get myself some of her pieces.

 Have a look at some of my 5 picks, and yeah, I did kind of cheat, because I chose some pictures that contain many of her accessories.

Aren’t they the most amazing accessories ever?! You have to look around her blog (here) and Flickr Photostream (here), because I tell you, she has tons more of exciting and stunning necklaces and earrings, all of them with that playful and rough feel to them.